John and Honni’s testimony

For over a decade, my husband and I were separated and then divorced. There was no contact over that time, our family had succumb to the enemies robbing, killing and destroying tactics. Yes, we were Christians at this point, and saved….but although righteous by his blood, we were not walking the paths of righteousness. We were not walking in the very chapter of scripture that was read at our wedding. Corinthians 13 - The love chapter.

Worry, fear, offense, and all manner of lusts of the flesh, had…as the bible says…..drawn us away from our Jesus. Our hearts had become hard toward God and toward each other. Unforgiveness and all it’s underlings, had festered in our hearts. We had not, as King Solomon wisely advised….’kept our hearts will all diligence'‘. The outcome was great loss and grief, and not only to us…but to our children and family ….and indeed to .those watching on. And these things when allowed to sit in anyone’s heart……will open doors for the enemy to come in and run a muck. And run a muck He did.

But……then came the grace of Jesus. The good shepherd never left us. He came and got us….drawing us to His breast, He held each one of us. He knew the hurts and fears of each of us. He understood them like no one else could. Individual to each other….and so deep that even we could not express them. The Holy Spirit started to guide us, began to heal our hearts by the washing of The Word of God. Each of us coming before Him, each of us drawn to a deeper intimacy with Him. Holding us close we began to trust Him, that He would never hurt us….which allowed us to begin to trust each other, safe in Jesus. To forgive each other, to love each other. But this time…the love was different. It held no expectations, offence, and judgements…it was the love Christ afforded us.

We are now in a place of thanksgiving and love. In fact I am sure my gracious God has just stamped my heart ‘THANKFUL’ because having seen His holiness and my blackness……there is nothing but overwhelming gratefulness for The One who gave it all. We can indeed receive God’s salvation….but still choose to walk in sin. Repentance is to turn and go God’s way…..keeping our hearts so they are softened to God and His love for us…..and not hardened so we walk away. But 1 John 1:9 says: ‘ If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness’.

We are eternally grateful for those who prayed for us over those years. Their love and diligence to press into God on our behalf was heard by God.

If you are struggling with a broken family…..pray….humble yourself before God….it is my incredible experience that He indeed will….lift you up. For He is ‘The Restorer Of The Broken Hearted’.